Miss you I do, dearest Mamma, truly I do

Miss you I do, dearest Mamma, truly I do
Lonely is my journey without you dearest Mamma
Ever by my side in every other you who always were
By my side in every trial every success you who were
In you flew the moment our beloved Fareen was struck
I am here said you and joined her in arduous battle you did
Your strength your courage your care unstinting you gave
Till conquer she did in three long years by Allaah's Grace

Came me next, healthy with you one day abed the next
Outward cheer you showed, worried fretted yet you did
Frailer now, yet giving diligent care for my wellbeing
By my bedside every afternoon, as open my eyes I did
Our time together, just pleasant company not much talk
Missed not a night, before sleep by my side sit you would
My eyes I close, you here by me I see, dearest Mamma
Miss you I do, dearest Mamma, truly I do

Walked as I did following Fareen's path to recovery
Came your phone call well I am not pain in the chest
Fly in tomorrow we will dearest Mamma, check we will fret not
Worry you did fret you did oh to alleviate how we tried
Allaah's Will, it was not to be, as we accept you did
Joined my journey you had, lesser in extent present yet
Years of strength and courage against heart disease you had
Shaken by cancer, for your beloved sister taken it had

A momentary relapse, your battle gear again you donned
Faith, prayer, your indomitable inner strength took over
Aged, yet lion hearted, under another surgeon's knife you slid
Frailer you emerged, bravely my hand on our path you took
Allaah's Divine Plan we His humble servants cannot comprehend
Unto Him Most Merciful Most Beneficent swiftly took you He did
Free of suffering, final prayers you had said, so Supreme His Compassion
Surely to Allaah we belong and unto Him is our return.

Undoubted happier surely you are, in Allaah's Grace, dearest Mamma
Husbandly and filial love, care, in abundance surely I receive
Your love your commentary this journey yet I surely sorely miss
Your wrath suffer would my doctors were you here as well I am not
Accept I do, My Creator's Decree Most Merciful, Most Benevolent
Strength I beg Allaah to soldier on without you, Mamma dearest
Beseech I do Allaah daily, to accept you Mamma unto His Divine Protection
Ya Rabbul A'alameen, grant my beloved Mamma entry into Jannath.
Aameen.

In Thankfulness of Thy Sublime Mercy, Ya Rabbul A'alameen

In Thankfulness of Thy Sublime Mercy, Ya Rabbul A'alameen

In the name of Allaah,
The Most Merciful, the Most Benign
There is no deity save Allaah
The Magnificent, the Clement
There is no deity save Allaah
Lord of the Magnificent Throne
All praise is for Allaah
Lord of the heavens, Lord of the earth
Lord of the Glorious Throne.

Ya Zul-Jalal Wal-Ikram
O Lord of Majesty and Bounty
As I continue my travel on my decreed journey of life
As I face each trial, tread along each path
As I open each gate appearing before me
As I pass through each, one by one
Feeling, healing, I learn, I become aware
Of the Beneficence of Thy Bounties O Most Merciful

Ya Kaafee Ya Shaafee, Ya Mujeeb-ad-da'awaathi
O Sufficer, O Healer, O Answerer of Prayers
By Your Mercy Most Glorious Most Abundant
My afflictions disperse by the wayside
My distress turns into happiness
My fears turn to confidence
Where I could not sit where I lay abed
I now stand I walk through Thine Grace.

Ya Hannaan, Ya Mannaan
O Most Compassionate, O Giver of all good
And I turn my face up to Thee in thankfulness and praise
All praise is to Thee, Ya Zal-manni wal-Ihsaan
O You full of Favors and Benefactions
For Your Mercy gives me life
For Your Compassion gives me good health
For Your Protection lets me go onwards, Ya Kareem

Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem
Bestow Your Blessings on the best of Your Creation Muhammad
And on the progeny of Muhammad and his Companions
Allaahuma maa binaa min niumathin
Faminka la-Illaaha illaa antha
Astaghfiruka wa-athoobu ilaika
O Allaah! Whatever bounties we have are all from Thee
There is no deity except Thee
I beseech Thy forgiveness and turn unto Thee.
Aameen.

A Prayer for Our Beloved Nation

A Prayer for Our Beloved Nation ...

Ya Allaah, Ya Zul-Jalal Wal-Ikram
Lord of Majesty and Bounty
There is no god but Allaah
Lord of Grace, the Clement
There is no God but Allaah
Lord of the Great Kingdom and Supremacy
All praise is for Allaah
Originator of the Heavens and the Earth

Ya Allaah Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem
25 years gone, our people still divided, bitter, vengeful
Enemies galore, aided abetted, within without
Our martyrs who fell in our stalwart defence
Their sacrifices remembered but not honored
With deed or reconciliation or unifying love for nation
Private vendettas, fitna, mistrust, reign supreme
Our people are weary, our new generations being destroyed

Ya Raziqal Bashari
O Nourisher of Mankind
Ya Muqaddira Kulli Qadarin
O Ordainer of every destiny
Ya Raheemal Abaraati
O Grace that takes pity on our tears
Ya Muqeelal Asaraati
O You that raises from the pitfalls

Rabbana atina min ladunka rahmatan wahayyi lana min amrina rashadan
"Our Lord! Bestow on us mercy from Yourself, and facilitate for us our affair in the right way!"

A Prayer For Insaaf and A'dl

Ya Allaah, Ya Zul-Jalal Wal-Ikram

Lord of Majesty and Bounty

There is no god but Allaah

The Great, the Clement

There is no God but Allaah

The Lord of Grace, the Supreme

All praise is for Allaah

Originator of the heavens and the earth

Ya Allaah, Ya Hakeem

I entrust my affairs to Thee

Surely Thou sees Thy servants

I depend on Thy Favor, Thy Generosity

Thou art the most Generous, the most Just

I ask for Thine Blessings upon my father

I beg Thee to make manifest what is truth

And what is conjured by evil doers

For Thou art the best of all to lay open the truth

Therefore judge Thou between him and them

And deliver him from their imprisonment

Ya Allaah, Ya Muhaymin

I ask Thee to take him under Thine Protection

Make him not a trial for the evil doing folk

Save as by Thine Mercy, Ya Khabeer

Help him against those who deny the truth

I ask Thee for Thy Justice, to give him Insaaf and A'dl

Against the evil doers, the unjust, the corrupt

Verily Thou art Allaah, Knower of the secret, the manifest

Only Thou wilt judge between Thy servants 

As to that wherein they differ

Ya Allaah, Ya A'lim, I seek refuge in Thee

Lest I ask of Thee aught whereof I have no knowledge

Unless Thou forgives me and have mercy upon me

I shall be of those who are ruined

Ya Allaah, Ya A'dl, all praise is for Thee

Lord of the Worlds, the Best of Judges

Glory be to Thee, besides Thou there is none

There is no injustice in Thy judgement

No unfairness in Thy disposal of our affairs

You are alone the Almighty, the truly Wise

Verily you have power over all things

Rabbi h'ukmu bil h'aqq. 

In Thankfulness For The Wind Beneath Our Wings

Ya Allaah, Ya Wahidul Qahhar

There is no god except Allaah

The All-Mighty, the Forbearing

There is no god except Allaah

Lord of the Mighty Throne

There is no god except Allaah

Lord of the Heavens

Lord of the earth and 

Lord of the Noble Throne

Ya Allaah, Ya Rahman

Thou art sufficient for me

And Thou art the Best Helper

I thank Thee for Blessing me

With a gracious loving being as my mother

A mother who with Thy guidance

Bred nurtured educated twelve siblings

She was our rock in all storms

Our comfort in distress and illness

Our guiding hand unto Thee

She was the wind beneath our wings

That carried us through the skies

Ya Allaah, Ya Raheem

Thy command over life is forever executed

And Thy decree over us is Just

Thy decree is the most Merciful

Thou art the most Compassionate

Thou knoweth her best better than we

O Master of Life and Soul

Verily unto Thee we belong

And unto Thee shall we return

Ya Allaah, Ya Azizul Ghaffar

Thee alone do we worship, Thee alone do we ask for help

Ya Allaah, receive my mother's soul honorably

And take her under Thy protection

Forgive her and save her 

From the trial of the grave and the torment of the fire

Have Mercy upon her, make her grave spacious, and

Grant her entry into Thy Garden

Thou alone art the Forgiver, the Merciful

Ya Allaah, Ya Azizul Hakeem

Blessed be Thy name my Lord

Full of Majesty, Bounty and Honor

To Thee be praise, first and last

Lord and Cherisher of the Worlds

For Thee is the command

And unto Thee shall we return

HasbunAllaah wa ni'mal wakeel

Ni'mal waulaa wa ni'mal naseer.

Walk through this world with me ...

On this eve of another milestone on this journey

Through this hazardous world of the sentenced

I look back and I thank you for what I see

You, loyal, constant always

Walking through this world with me.

From the first day my journey began

You took my hand and never let go

Long tortuous days, unable to move

Still despairing pain filled nights

Never did I have to search for you

You were there, constant always

Never did you allow me to falter

You were there to stop my tears

Never did you allow me to doubt

You were there to fight my fears

Never did you allow me to stray

You were there to guide me

Never did you allow me to give up

You were there to carry me.

You searched high and low, day and night

And found me the weapons to fight

You guided me straight on my mission

To the power of prayer and submission

To the Beneficent Mercy of Allaah Almighty

As I turn in thankfulness to Allaah

For His Gracious multitude of Blessings

I thank my Sublime Lord from the depth of my soul

For Blessing me with you, Victory of Allaah

To walk through this world with me.

Forgive me O Allaah ...

Ya Allaah Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem

Forgive me O Sovereign of my life

O Sublimely Magnificent Guardian

O Lord of Ennobling Generosity

O Universally Merciful Healer

For my tongue is too inept

My language skills too poor

To ever express in full measure

The overwhelming gratitude overflowing

From my heart my being my very soul

For Your Bountiful Blessings

For Your Endless Beneficence

For Your Sublime Compassion

For Your Benevolent Protection

For Your All-Responsive Healing

For granting me refuge from pain

For shielding me from suffering

For girding me with strength

For infusing my heart with Faith

For delivering me from sickness

O Allaah O Allaah O Allaah

O Pure Beneficence

O Universally Merciful

O Singularly Compassionate

Glory be to You, O Allaah

Ya H'ayyu Ya Qayyoom bi Rah'mathika Astaghees

O You, the Everlasting and All-Sustainer

Persistently do I invoke Your Mercy.

Another Battle Begun In This Ongoing War

Continuous spiritual battle from last December
Victorious and healing by Allaah's Mercy
Supported periodically by toxic legionaries
Engaging in all strength with the traitors
Who meta morphed into an invading army
Running unfettered through out the system
Till beaten by Faith and Prayer to Allaah AlMighty
The last resistors mopped by the Legion

Another battle begun today by the Legion

Against the multiplying invading enemy within

The attacking phalanx of Docetax hammer at enemy lines
Followed by steady ranks of the red Doxorub
Through the breach stab the mighty Cyclofos
Together combined beat the enemy in the blood
From the flank attack the hardy Zolendron
Laying siege to the enemy in their bony hideouts
Starving the resisting troops of all supplies

The sixth and last of such battles, Insha Allaah
To proceed to the next dimension in this long war
Victory assured by faith and supplication to Allaah AlMighty

يَا حَيُّ يَا قَيُّوْمُ بِرَحْمَتِكَ أَسْتَغِيْث

In my daughter's footsteps

How strange is life as I undertake the journey
That my baby daughter travelled yesterday
Stricken thrice, rising again with Allaah's Mercy
Here she stands by my side tall and pretty
By Allaah's Grace, not just a survivor
But a mighty conqueror.

How strange is life as I live her journey
Experience now what she could not explain then
Understand now what I could only see then
Here she stands holding firm my hand
Just as I did hers as she lay as I do now
Hope eternal, Allaah's Blessing.

Herewith I begin ...

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِِ

For several years, people have been telling me I should start my own blog. I considered it sometimes, but felt that there really was no point in blogging on every subjects of interest; after all who would be interested in my opinion? I am still of the same view, but am finally taking the plunge because it will help to organize my thoughts and hopefully help revive writing skills lost after my academic career. 

A final purpose is also to represent myself and my views. Why? Primarily because the more vocal segment of our current Maldivian society has a habit of misrepresenting and destroying people's good name and reputation, one of many such victims being myself. The lies fabricated by this group are blatantly untrue, and yet gain currency as they are told and retold. The record needs to be set straight, and as this blog progresses, I will attempt to do so. 

May Allaah Bless you, my readers.